This year’s goals (other than the typical “I will lose weight” lol) will be to worry less, stop complaining about the small things, and just be happy.

For the first time ever, I can honestly say I love my life. Of course I’d like to be done with school, making over 50K a year (after taxes =P), and traveling, but who wouldn’t? I have a great relationship with my parents, an amazing boyfriend, and great friends (even though they’re all in different states).

The saying goes, “you don’t appreciate what you have until it’s gone”. Luckily for me, I’ve never lost anything that was worth appreciating.

It seems like whenever I’m happy, I deliberately find ridiculous reasons to take that away from myself. Honestly, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Maybe I’ve become so accustomed to pain and disappointment that steady happiness is just unreal to me. This self destructive mentality isn’t healthy, but I don’t know how to stop. Sometimes I wonder if I subconsciously enjoy pain.